Posts Tagged ‘True Love’

It has been 25 days since my last post.  It has been truly a difficult 25 days in my life.  It is no where as hard as someone who is struggling with an illness, a family member that has gone off to war, or even lost a love one who has been very close.

My struggles are very personal to me, struggle with finding a job, dealing with losing a vehicle, breaking off my engagement to be married, personal injuries, and even dealing with money issue because of a lack of employment.

During this time I have being questioning a lot of things these past 25 days.  Things that are far beyond my mind can even begin to understand.  My biggest question is why. I tell God in my post that I don’t understand what is going on, I don’t understand the purpose behind this struggle that I am going through. Why have you chosen me? These question I have asked myself repeatedly with these scripture that keep coming to mind each and every time.

Psalm 46:10 –

Be still, and know that I am God;
I will be exalted among the nations,
I will be exalted in the earth!

Isaiah 55:8-9

“For My thoughts are not your thoughts,
Nor are your ways My ways,” says the Lord.
“For as the heavens are higher than the earth,
So are My ways higher than your ways,
And My thoughts than your thoughts.

Jeremiah 29:11

For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, says the Lord, thoughts of peace and not of evil, to give you a future and a hope.

Job Chapter 40-41 (Just put into retrospect of everything)

I am not going to lie, every time I am reminded, I do get frustrated, and I want to see the big picture.  Then I see what I am going through and I don’t see the bigger picture of what is going on in my life at this moment. The present situation that I am currently in is serving afor something greater in the future.  I am only seeing what is going on with me from right in the middle of the storm instead of from the sky box view of the one who created us. I can honestly say what I am going through absolutely sucks! I don’t like the current place I am in. I realize that God see things that we can only begin to even fathom with our minds.

If you have been going through an ordeal that is painful, you have been questioning things that have been going on in your life, you’re not alone.  Even minister at time struggle with hardship.  We are not perfect and struggle just like each and every person in the world.  The only different there is an amazing God who is there by our side to be able to pick us up when we least expect it, and bringing a peace that by no means should be with us when everything is going wrong in our lives.  That why I follow God, and His Son Jesus Christ, Because only through Jesus do we find that total peace, that perfect healing peace that only can be given by Him.

I tell you tonight, that it is worth it all to follow after Christ, even in time of hardship because I know that He has never left me or forsaken me. My entire life, He has been with me every step of the way.  He will do the same for you!




As I look at this photo it causes me to pray in a new way for my future wife. For many years I have prayed God send her, or let me have her, or this one, let me know when I can be married. Over the last 7-8 weeks, my focus has been dealing with the Lord’s prayer and submitting to God’s Will for who He needs me to be with in my life to move forward in my ministry for Him.  My prayers have gone from being selfish prayers to God and pleading to send me someone that I desired. To God who ever you have designed for me, and according to Your Will in Heaven, allow her to be that person you have purposed in Heaven for me here on earth.  It has been one of the hardest things of submission I have ever faced in my life, but one thing I can rest assure is that God know who will best fit who I am, and accept me for who I am.


I want to encourage all who read this to know that God Love’s you, and know the best person to be apart of your life like He does for mine.  He has shown me time and time and time again that He is there, He hasn’t forsaken me. In fact He has propelled me to be an even strong person to know that He gotten me taken care of like He does for you.


Dear Heavenly Father,


As People read this post, speak life into there lives to let them know that no matter what is happening in there lives regarding relationship, that you have designed someone to perfectly match us and complement us to do great and wondrous things for your glory! Thank You Father, We thank you for everything, and ask all these things through your son Jesus. Amen